25.2.05

Networking

"Everything for free, Everyone works for free"

Well, not exactly. As it is, DV tape will be $5, the steadicam $14. But my good friend the very talented artist is lending her aid for the small fee of a mention in the credits and the cost of her supplies. Any way you look at it, this is a promising project, and I'm really excited to be working with my talented partner on a serious work of quality film. (sure I'd love a better camera and better editing equipment, but this will have to do.)

24.2.05

High Definition

The highlight of my day - I got to test out the new High Definition Final Cut suite in Corbitt!! I cut together most of the big wheel race sequence for the film as a test run. It was really kinda cool. I even liked it so much that I decided to dump it to tape so I could have it. It was a pretty cool day.

18.2.05

Odd

We had the Collegium sing at the beginning of chapel today. They sang two beautifully composed acapella pieces. Then we launched into a praise and worship set. It just felt so empty after the beautiful worship we'd been hearing.

Marta

Luke 10:40-42
But Marta was busy with all the work to be done; so, going up to him, she said, "Sir, don't you care that my sister has been leaving me to do all the work by myself?" However, the Lord answered her, "Marta, Marta, you are fretting and worrying about so many things! But there is only one thing that is essential. Miryam has chosen the right thing, and it won't be taken away from her."

Most folks take this as a passage on the importance of spiritual matters over earthly matters. They have a good point - it is good that Miryam (Mary) chose to sit at the feet of the Lord and listen to him teach. We should all spend more time at His feet, learning His ways, getting to know Him.

There are more aspects to life than just the spiritual, but if we base our priorities on the things stressed by many speakers and writers these days, the spiritual is the only one that matters. What does that leave for Mart(h)a?

I would argue that there is a place in the Kingdom for the Marta's of this world. Christ was not saying that what Marta was doing didn't matter. He didn't say that she shouldn't do it. Yes, there is only one thing that is eternally essential, and when we are living in the Eternal Kingdom that will be the only thing we need to do. It will be a great day when we can just sit at Christ's feet, or in his lap and just listen to Him and worship Him and spend time studying His beautiful face.

But for the time that we live on this earth, there are other concerns. Proverbs 31 says that the ideal wife "gathers her strength around her and throws herself into her work." Romans 12:11 says "Don't be lazy when hard work is needed, but serve the Lord with spiritual fervor." We mustn't downplay the eternal good done through even the most everyday work. The preacher preaches, the choir sings, and the congregation prays for spiritual concerns - but if we're going to continue to serve the poor and feed the hungry, somebody has to do the dishes. We shouldn't stand by saying "the Lord will provide" while the little "projects" pile up around us. If you can help, then maybe, just maybe, you are the solution God is sending for the situation.

But Christ reprimanded Marta (you know you were thinking it). Yes He did - because she overstepped her bounds. It was no more her place to say that Miryam should help her in the kitchen than it was for Miryam to tell her to come sit down. In every situation we have a role to play. It's not always glamorous, or an "experience." In order to make up the Body of Christ we all have to work together in our different roles. We cannot see the whole big picture as God does; it is not our place to decide where people belong.

So here's to the Marta's, the folks who work in the background to keep the parts of Christ's body in a position to function at their best. They don't need recognition, that's not the point. But every once in a while we should remember that what they are doing is legitimate spiritual work as well. It is an act of worship in and of itself, and it is very good.

16.2.05

. . . thoughts

disconnect
I see beauty
a great terrible beauty
huge, formless
it at once terrifies and attracts
far
so very far
beyond the reach of hand
or eye
and yet near enough
to tempt, to play
the coy mistress to my desires
I can't
can't reach
can't feel
can't attain
so very far
beyond me
above me
around me
disconnect
break
I want to jump the chasm
so very far
full of fears
hurt, pain
I can't
disconnect

15.2.05

The Ragman

**Disclaimer, I didn't write this. Of course, this is obvious even to the casual observer, as the caliber of prose is far to high to be attributed to me.**

I saw a strange sight. I stumbled upon a story most strange, like nothing my life, my street sense, my sly tongue had ever prepared me for. Hush, child. Hush, now, and I will tell it to you.

Even before the dawn one Friday morning I noticed a young man, handsome and strong, walking the alleys of our City. He was pulling an old cart filled with clothes both bright and new, and he was calling in a clear, tenor voice: "Rags!" Ah, the air was foul and the first light filthy to be crossed by such sweet music."Rags! New rags for old! I take your tired rags! Rags!" "Now, this is a wonder," I thought to myself, for the man stood six-feet-four, and his arms were like tree limbs, hard and muscular, and his eyes flashed intelligence. Could he find no better job than this, to be a ragman in the inner city?I followed him. My curiosity drove me. And I wasn't disappointed.Soon the Ragman saw a woman sitting on her back porch. She was sobbing into a handkerchief, sighing, and shedding a thousand tears. Her knees and elbows made a sad X. Her shoulders shook. Her heart was breaking.

The Ragman stopped his cart. Quietly, he walked to the woman, stepping round tin cans, dead toys, and Pampers. "Give me your rag," he said so gently, "and I'll give you another. He slipped the handkerchief from her eyes. She looked up, and he laid across her palm a linen cloth so clean and new that it shined. She blinked from the gift to the giver.

Then, as he began to pull his cart again, the Ragman did a strange thing: he put her stained handkerchief to his own face; and then he began to weep, to sob as grievously as she had done, his shoulders shaking. Yet she was left without a tear. "This is a wonder," I breathed to myself, and I followed the sobbing Ragman like a child who cannot turn away from mystery. "Rags! Rags! New rags for old!" In a little while, when the sky showed grey behind the rooftops and I could see the shredded curtains hanging out black windows, the Ragman came upon a girl whose head was wrapped in a bandage, whose eyes were empty. Blood soaked her bandage. A single line of blood ran down her cheek.

Now the tall Ragman looked upon this child with pity, and he drew a lovely yellow bonnet from his cart. "Give me your rag," he said, tracing his own line on her cheek, "and I'll give you mine." The child could only gaze at him while he loosened the bandage, removed it, and tied it to his own head. The bonnet he set on hers. And I gasped at what I saw: for with the bandage went the wound! Against his brow it, ran a darker, more substantial blood -- his own! "Rags! Rags! I take old rags!" cried the sobbing, bleeding, strong, intelligent Ragman.

The sun hurt both the sky, now, and my eyes; the Ragman seemed more and more to hurry. "Are you going to work?" he asked a man who leaned against a telephone pole. The man shook his head. The Ragman pressed him: "Do you have a job?" "Are you crazy?" sneered the other. He pulled away from the pole, revealing the right sleeve of his jacket -- flat, the cuff stuffed into the pocket. He had no arm. "So, " said the Ragman. "Give me your jacket, and I'll give you mine." Such quiet authority in his voice! The one-armed man took off his jacket. So did the Ragman -- and I trembled at what I saw: for the Ragman's arm stayed in its sleeve, and when the other put it on he had two good arms, thick as tree limbs; but the Ragman had only one.
"Go to work," he said.

After that he found a drunk, lying unconscious beneath an army blanket, an old man, hunched, wizened, and sick. He took that blanket and wrapped it round himself, but for the drunk he left new clothes. And now I had to run to keep up with the Ragman. Though he was weeping uncontrollably, and bleeding freely at the forehead, pulling his cart with one arm, stumbling for drunkenness, falling again and again, exhausted, old, old, and sick, yet he went with terrible speed. On spider's legs he skittered through the alleys of the City, this mile and the next, until he came to its limits, and then he rushed beyond.

I wept to see the change in this man. I hurt to see his sorrow. And yet I needed to see where he was going in such haste, perhaps to know what drove him so. The little old Ragman -- he came to a landfill. He came to the garbage pits. And then I wanted to help him in what he did, but I hung back, hiding. He climbed a hill. With tormented labor he cleared a little space on that hill. Then he sighed. He lay down. He pillowed his head on a handkerchief and a jacket. He covered his bones with an army blanket. And he died. Oh, how I cried to witness that death! I slumped in a junked car and wailed and mourned as one who has no hope -- because I had come to love the Ragman. Every other face had faded in the wonder of this man, and I cherished him; but he died. I sobbed myself to sleep.

I did not know -- how could I know? -- that I slept through Friday night and Saturday and its night, too. But then, on Sunday morning, I was wakened by a violence. Light -- pure, hard, demanding light -- slammed against my sour face, and I blinked, and I looked, and I saw the last and the first wonder of all. There was the Ragman, folding the blanket most carefully, a scar on his forehead, but alive! And, besides that, healthy! There was no sign of sorrow nor of age, and all the rags that he had gathered shined for cleanliness.


This story is an old favorite of mine. I hope you enjoy. Oh, it's by a man named Walter Wangerin, Jr.

11.2.05

Date Auction

Ben Wyman, Ben Peracchio, Jeremy White - $12
Marshal Young - $3
Kyle Olney - $9
Dale Davis - $8
Steve Stockhauser - $31
Todd Zurin and Hans Gehman - $8
Robb Hess - $22
Ernie Wagoner and Richard Menear - $22
Emily Cross - $27
Greg Breiding - $13
DJ Casto and Adam Shearer - $40
Brandon Buell - $5
Dan Ball - $6
Dan Bracken - $8
Dave Greider -$14
Mike Toczyski - $21
UK tickets - $65
John Greenhoe - $25
Shane Smith - $15
Ben McLaughlin - $36
Becca Harvey and Heather Tatum - $21
Nancy Keller and Ashley Filges - $8
Daniel Browning - $11
Josh Irwin and Nathan White- $35
TJ Jackson - $5
AJ Stich and Brandon Bray - $38
Matt Tranthum - $16
Jon Beck - $5
Aaron Farnham - $24
Tim Johnston - $6
Katie Blair and Megan Kamm - $45
Tres Adames - $5
Timothy Parker Jr. - $17
Lucas and Mark Speakman - $6
Hanah Rohe and Beth Rogers - $13
Matt Luyk and Cam Faulkner - $30
Hannah and Yoonie - $20

The calm after the storm - Priceless!!

9.2.05

it's a girl

I inherited two bubbly elementary schoolers monday afternoon. Insta-mom I am not, quite. I don't really reccomend making a habit of inheriting small children - inevitably one will be grounded and the other one sick. Well, not really. That's the exhausted me talking. The real me had a great time!

Denny and Tiffany left for the hospital Monday night around 5 . . . so we made dinner and watched a movie, and the girls went to bed. Erin came over and we worked on a project for class on Wednesday, then the fun began! Maddie fell asleep pretty quickly, though she woke up around 4, and had trouble falling back to sleep. Mo on the other hand had a hacking cough, and ended up coughing so hard she made herself sick, off and on until at least 11:30. I ended up having to slip her some cold medicine (which she had been refusing to take) in a cup of deflated coca-cola that I had been using to help settle her stomach. Well, eventually we fell asleep, on the couch in the living room, since I had to strip the sheets from her bed earlier. She slept pretty well after that, but she had missed about 4 hours of much needed sleep. I laid down on the other couch. Sleep didn't come too easy (see my last post). Seth called at 4 when he got off work - they had him loading a military trailer headed for South Carolina. We talked for a while, he was a bit shaken by what he'd been loading all night (yes, whatever that impossible thought you just had is probably right). Anyway, I eventually crashed. The girls had to rise at 6:15 to get ready and catch the bus. Once I got them off to school I went home, showered and crashed.

Tired doesn't even begin to describe it, but on the upside, it was really fun to hang with the girls for nigh on 2 days. The baby came Tuesday afternoon, so the tribe is now at 5. By all accounts she's a cutie. I'm a little sick at present, so I'm gonna stave off visiting for a week or so. College is so random sometimes, I'm amazed that all these events actually happened, and I was there, I didn't make it up. D, T, MA, MB, and MC all seem to be doing well. It should be an exiting house for a while.

7.2.05

modern technology at it's finest

Ordinarily this would be a very, VERY cynical post involving the shortcomings of the items I am forced to trust out of necessity. Ordinarily. But today I am singing the praises of modern technology. It is a joy to live in an age when two pain pills last up to 12 hours and you can covertly slap on a heating pad where it hurts and it will keep the area toasty warm for 8-10 hours (and to top that off, it only says it lasts 8, but I've had them last close to 11). No one who sees me today will have any idea that something hurts, unless I'm moving a little slow. This is way to impressive. Three guesses as to what is up, but I'm feeling pretty good for the most part.

4.2.05

so normally . . .

Ordinarily I post papers I write, after I turn them in. But, the last one was a script analysis for a script I don't feal like posting. However, I can post the beginnings of the next one. This is the proposed topic for my ethical dilemma paper, mass comm. theory.

Two years ago you landed a job you'd been hoping for for years. You finally got a low end production job, grip, electric grip etc. . . on a sitcom production crew. The show was one you really liked - it didn't shy away from tough issues or controversial topics, but it dealt with them in a moral and redemptive fashion (kinda like a much cooler 7th Heaven). Now, two years later, you've made some good friends on the crew and you feel that you're in the process of plating seeds with some of your co-workers. Plus, you really enjoy your job, you're challenged and you're learning things you need to move up in the field. But now the producers have decided to change the content of the show, they want to make it racier to improve the ratings. Now you're stuck with the decision to stay with the show, or go find one less objectionable.

I have to do a sizeable amount of research and interview three industry professionals.


This could be fun.

2.2.05

truth in advertising?

Mass communication theory . . . what a world of crazed possibilities!

This month of classes (give or take a week) has been sponsored by Ethics.
Ethics! It does a body good.
Er . . . maybe it simply further confuses a mind.

I've seen a few of my cohorts get lost somewhere between the principle of utility and the veil of ignorance. This is not rocket science kids! Someone commented to me today that no normal person would employ the methods we're using to make a decision. Normal people are not exactly known for THOUGHT!!!! People, as a species, are pretty stupid. Pehaps if we actually tried to think, maybe more of life would make sense.
Thought . . . it does a world of good.

Ok, so I'm being a dork now, I'm gonna stop.

But, seriously, why do people complain about things being an absurd expectation of "normal people?" Normal people are not the high mark we are trying to achieve! Why is something bad if "normal people" don't do it??? People as individuals are often very reasonable and intelligent, but people as a species are often very disappointing and even depressing. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I'm some sort of super genius. I do know a few really smart people, and I can't, in good conscience, count myself among them. But for me, at least, beyond the basic realities of my social anxiety problems, a flock of humans is one of the most frightening and stressful things to deal with. Run away!

We had a speaker in chapel last week who wanted to reach sage status, and have people seek him for knowledge. A sizable part of me wants to go find such a sage and sit at their feet for a year. I crave knowledge, and more importantly wisdom.

Random question - Why did the German expressionist movement in film draw it's influence from the work of Edvard Munch? He's not GERMAN!